Mizzle Bizzle's Journizzle

2003-11-12T16:56:00.000-08:00

I love this new Limp Bizkit song "Behind Blue Eyes". It has such a haunting melodic line and I love it. I know the Who did it first for all of you yelling, "It's a cheap cover!". I like it so deal with it.

I feel so stressed lately and so down and out. I am getting used to the fact that I may possibly make two Bs this semester but I am not happy with it. I may still have a chance in Bio to turn things around but Chem may prove to be a bigger challenge. This whole pre-med thing had got my stomach all in knots. People here are so intimidated by the program offered that all I hear are things like, "Did you here in this class practically everyone fails?" and "Oh next semester is going to be soooo hard!" and blah blah blah blah. I think people spend so much time psyching themselves out about the classes that they are ready to fail before they even begin. While I recognize this I can't help but feel a little nervous myself. My problem is that I have such doubt in myself and my ability to perform up to par. I just feel like I need someone in my corner who knows to tell me, "Yeah you're on the right path, you have what it takes, I know you can do it." I am just so terrified of what to do if I can't do this. I have no idea what else I would do with my life. Move to Hollywood and become a famous actress. Hehe.

So if there are any words of encouragement out there, feel free to send them this way. They wouldn't hurt!

2003-11-09T14:13:00.000-08:00

I just finished cleaning my dorm room.....sigh......both sides. Lately I really feel like I have gotten the short end of the stick when it comes to my roommate. I am so unhappy and I really want a new one. She is nice enough but not so great to live with and we are absolutely on opposite ends of the universe. Here is some of the stuff I have to live with daily (I know I'm whining but I really need to get it off my chest) :

1. Massive amounts of long dark hair on anything and everything. In my bed, on the floor, on my desk...
2. Trash wrappers everywhere and food particles with dried spots of random liquid on the floor.
3. Stuff of mine disappearing and ending up mixed in with her stuff
4. Spit in the trash can
5. No sense of organization or pride in the appearance of our room

I know what everyone is thinking and I am planning on talking to her about it today. Man, we are going to have to have a major conversation and I am dreading every minute of it. My stomach is turning over as we speak. My biggest hurdle is this complex that I have regarding bestowing any criticism on her whatsoever. Call it stupid, whatever, but when I first found out I was going to have a seriously religious and devout rommate, a part of me felt like this was a sign from God to try and put me back on the path to righteousness. So everytime I find myself having a negative thought in her direction I feel like in some way I am committing blasphemy to God. Arrrgh! This is so hard and I almost want to burst into tears right now. If anyone has any advice let me know. Keep in mind I have talked to her about some of things a couple of times before.

On a little happier note, I went to church today for the first time in a very long time; probably two months or so. I didn't go back to the Presbyterian church I first visited here in Sherman, I went to the big Methodist church in downtown. I really liked it and was really glad I went. The sermon topic today was, "Is your life worth dying for?". I found it very thought provoking especially because I am in a point in my life when all the decisions I make can possibly affect the next thirty years. So I really have to choose wisely and carefully at this point. It's all so exciting and very scary at the same time.

So speaking of making good choices I am going to now sign off and study for the two tests I have coming up on Wednesday. So long!

2003-11-05T12:49:00.000-08:00

So I was thinking today, "Wow I have all of these thoughts floating around in my head now, I really should do some self therapy and keep my journal again." So to those of you who cried out in frustration, "Why isn't she writing anymore?!" (and I'm sure there were so many), here once again is my blog. Hopefully somewhat new and improved.

Well school has been going for about two months now and I still feel a little unadjusted. I wonder if it has ever taken anybody else this long to feel comfortable in a new place. I hate to admit but sometimes I wonder if this whole college thing is for me, and then I stop myself and say, "Of course it is. If I wasn't doing college what else would I be doing? Working at McDonald's?". But whenever I think of the future looming ahead of me, it absolutely one hundred percent terrifies me. Uttlerly terrifies me. I can't see myself as anything else in this world other than a doctor. There is nothing else for me (other then being a movie star or Britney Spears). However, I have this awful feeling that when real crunch time comes I'm going to fail miserably. I really feel as though I don't have what it takes to be a doctor. Whether that be intelligence, maturity, discipline, whatever, I really feel like it isn't there for me. I wish I could reach a point in life where I wake up every day excited about what I'm going to learn and learning was a fun and challenging process to me. Instead I view it as work and that makes each day less fun then the one before it.

On a more positive note, I really feel that I am finding a good group of intimate friends. Each one has their own special quality and I can see us all becoming so close in the near future. And the most exciting part is we are all going to pledge Alpha Delta Chi!! So my friends whom I know I will grow to love dearly will also be my sisters for life!

And on the relationship front, Rusty caused me to have a real scare last night. One thing you must know beforehand is Rusty has always had this burning desire to go into law enforcement. And not the kind where you sit on the side of the road and give out speeding tickets. The kind where you work late at night until early morning and in the ghettoest of the ghetto. That is the kind of cop he would want to be. However, for a while now he has serioulsy considered staying on at 24 hour fitness and going into sales and eventually working his way up to upper management. And with the way things have been going with us lately I can really see a future together....he and his management career and me and my practice....such a nice happy life. Well he calls me last night and tells me very seriously that he is considering being a police officer. This makes my heart jump into my throat because I know I cannot and will not marry a police officer. I don't have the character to only see my husband a little during the day and sleep by myself at night and worry that every time I say good bye to him may be the last time I ever talk to him. So this got me thinking that if that's what he wants to do then why are we together if I know we aren't going to end up together? What's the point of giving all of yourself to someone who
you won't end up with and possibly miss out on who you are supposed to be with? So we had a serious talk about the future and he swears that the 24 hour fitness thing is a better possibility and he knows we are supposed to be together. So for now things are better, but I'm still a little worried. Where will the future take us?

Sorry this is so long, but I had a lot of catching up to do. Tonight is Bob the Bachelor and I hope that stupid Mary or Estella gets voted off tonight! Kelly Jo all the way! It's thundering and cold and rainy here, so I'm off to curl up in my bed! So long for now!

2003-09-14T19:41:00.000-07:00

I went home this weekend after a somewhat tumultuous Friday night. For some reason I've been having the most awful mood swings. Who knows whether that is a result of the weather, hormones, etc. I've had boughts of depression and then all of a sudden I'm so happy I'm giddy. So Friday was spent feeling lonely and sad until Samir came to keep me company. His mere presence made me feel one hundred percent better and then Rusty showed up later and I was happy to see him as well, even though our time together was a little awkward. Because of my new living situation with my roommate, I'm not quite sure how much display of affection I'm comfortable demonstrating. One more thing to work out. I do know that I love him with all my heart and I am totally committed to making this college thing work out. It was so nice being home with my family. I never realized how much love and warmth there is amoing all of us and I just felt so centered and calm in the comfort of home. I was a gigantic loser on Saturday night because I sat in my room and read bio, chem, PF, and chem prelab. But so much was accomplished and I feel like a gigantic weight has been lifted off my shoulders. Now I am back in the dorm and getting ready to go for a late run...got to be dedicated if I want to achieve a body like Britney's! That's all for now!

2003-09-10T11:14:00.000-07:00

Oh gosh, I am afriad even to look at the last day I posted. I should officially be in the Blog Hall of Shame. For a quick update, college life is good and busy. Since I'm a Business Administration major on a pre med plan, these next four years will definitely be a load. But I have confidence in my ability. I have to deal with all these people telling me things like, "Hey did you know that 2/3 of the people who originally say they are pre med turn out to be psych majors or english majors by the second semester?" and "Did you know everyone says that those who are in Intro to Bio and Chem usually fail horribly?". Thank you so much you bunch of dumbasses for your vote of confidence in me! Seeing as we've been a here a week and a half I can tell you know everything there is to know about me! Yeah, that's not a sensitive nerve or anything. Everyone here at AC seems pretty nice though and it is great to catch up with old friends from high school here, even though that's not too many. There is just something liberating about being at a place where nobody knows anything about you or has any preconcieved ideas, therefore you are able to present yourself in any light that you want and create a whole new identity for yourself if you should desire. One thing on campus that I am really excited about is a club called Best Buddies in which you are paired up individually with a person who is mentally hadicapped. You are able to build a one-on-one relationship with those people and bring joy into their lives as well as your own. I'm also debating the whole sorority thing. At Austin College it is local so it's not like at SMU where whether or not you are involved in Greek life defines who you are. The shallow part of me wants to be in Alpha Delta Phi, which are the pretty and popular girls, but the more reasonable side of me thinks I would happier in Omega Delta, who are the nice girls on campus. Oh well I don't have to decide until February. I know this is a long one but there is so much happiness going on right now and I want to share it. I have PF in twenty minutes then it's off to hit the books once again! Tata!

2003-08-27T00:06:00.000-07:00

My whole world has been turned upside down it seems. I got a quick call this morning from mi madre who informed me that apparently we had read the paper wrong and I was to move in on Thursday instead of Friday. So I packed up at the grandparents and said a tearful early good bye. Now there is so much to do before I leave...go to the bank, last minute trips to Wal Mart and packing, packing, packing. I did a lot of it tonight but I still am missing a few things and I haven't even started on my clothes. Rusty and I cheated since I was home early and he stopped by. I miss him all the time, but in order for me to establish an identity at college we are going to have to brave the lonsomeness, and the same goes for him. Actually right now I am feeling pretty unimportant. Everyone has left, but no one has called to tell me anything. I've left a few messages but to no avail. Maybe everyone has moved on and I'm supposed to as well. :( That is all for now, good night Journizzle.

2003-08-25T13:23:00.000-07:00

I am now the official lone ranger in town. Except right now I am out of town at my grandparents' in Tyler. I'll be back on Wednesday though to begin the long job of packing things up to leave. I went and said good bye to Sam on Saturday and then said good bye to Rusty on Sunday, before making the two hour trip out here all by myself. I am such a big girl now. Not too much is happening right now just the countdown for college! Only three and a half days left! This is something I've been waiting my whole life for and now it's finally here. See ya!

2003-08-20T11:18:00.000-07:00

Late between postings as usual..sigh. Maybe this whole regular entry thing will come together better as I get on a better schedule. Girls night out was fun andI think my dirt cups were a hit! Now Heather's gone and Anna is leaving tomorrow, so it's two down, two to go. I've spent the past few days catching up on my sleep and yesterday I had the dreaded first gyno visit. Don't worry I'm not going to go into any detail. Just got put on birth control which I knew was going to happen. I also went and got my hair cut yesterday. I don't think I like it at all. It was supposed to look like Jennifer Aniston's when she had it cut above her shoulders and I've asked for that cut a hundred times and it never looks like it! So frustrating. Today it looks like I am going to be picking up my room and getting the ball rolling on packing. I'm leaving clothes packing for next week because that will be a project in itself. I have to say my good byes to Anna....sniff and tear, and then it will be off to do something else boring in Mary Beth land. Man a grilled cheese sandwich and On the Border chips and quseo sound delish. Too bad I'm on a diet! :(

2003-08-16T08:14:00.000-07:00

Omg! It has been ten days since my last update and so much has happened in those days so I'm going to have to consider them lost forever. I've been so busy finishing up work and geting ready for school that I haven't had time to hardly do anything else. I know all of you are going "uh-huh" and "yeah right", she's just too damn lazy. Well all I have to say is stick it in your ear! JK! The high point of the past days was going to stay at my dad's friend's lake house. It was so freakin' nice and I got to ski (I learned how to slalom!), jet ski, and tube. So fun! Now everyone around here is packing up all their junk and getting the hell out of town. Me, I'll be the last one to leave (August 29) so it will be boring for awhile. There are some people I'm really going to miss and there are a few I'm totally ready just to wash my hands of. So the plan for my day today is go to the mall with my sister and spend more of my hard earned cash, hopefully go work out, and then it's the last hurrah with my girls. Don't tell, but I'm making a surprise for all of them to eat tonight! I'm excited! Well that's all for now.

2003-08-05T14:22:00.000-07:00

Two days since my last post on this Journizzle, so I guess it's time for an update. Went to church on Sunday, but instead of feeling uplifted, I actually felt a little bit worse. So I headed over to Anna's because I needed time away from the family that is bringing me down. I swear both my sister and my dad are exactly the same person. They manage to take a fun, happy environment and completely suck the happiness right out with a simple ugly remark. How depressing. And it seemed that my parents, who have been in couple's therapy for over a year, were never going to be able to work things out. They are both going down two different roads that have no hope of ever intersecting each other at this point. I have this deep rooted fear that when I leave for school, my mom is going to sleep in their bedroom and my dad will move into mine. You'll see my parents in twenty years and they will be like Frank and Marie Barone on Everybody Loves Raymond, who wish everyday for the sweet release of death to free them from him/her. How morbid does that sound? At Anna's we made multiple trips to the Wal-Mart and spent all our money on crap, and I finally had to crash in Anna's bed before Rusty and I went to work out. After that we showered and met up at his house where we played a rousing game of Monopoly with his family. Rusty totally kicked everyone's butt! He has the makings of a great real estate tycoon!

Monday it was time to put my nose back to the grindstone called work (Yuck, but only nine days left!). My manager is going on vacation for the week, so the head honcho has come in to take over for her. So now the environment feels slightly tense and I can tell from today that he doesn't like it when I don't have anything to do. That is not my fault though, there isn't anything for me to do!! After work yesterday, I went to the gym only to ride the bike for ten minutes and go home. I was planning to work out back and biceps, but after the ride, because of female troubles (sorry!) I felt sick and could not continue. I went into the locker room after the bike to see if I could calm down and the girl in the stall next to me came in and totally threw up so many times, I thought she was going to puke up her vital organs. After witnessing that I definitely had to leave.

And finally today I went to work for a few hours, it's my half day, and then came home and went to sleep. I once again was supposed to go work out with Rusty, but I still feel under the weather so I'm chilling in bed being fat and lazy. I'll probably go for a walk later while Rusty is at karate, but that's later. That's all folks!!

2003-08-02T23:09:00.000-07:00

I'm almost too tired to write anything worth reading, but here goes. Yesterday I got to leave work early because they were putting a new tar roof on the building and all of us were getting high, so my boss said she was closing the office and for us to go home! So of course I made the most of my afternoon by going home and taking a nap...the best way to spend free time. Then my mom came in and reminded me that the Dallas area Austin College recruiter was having a "Meet Dallas Austin College Students" party and I should go. I really didn't want to, but I ended up meeting really cool people and now I'm so excited about the whole thing I can barely stand to wait any longer! After the party Rusty and I got our chow on at Chili's where Sam and Anna met up with us and then we headed back to his house for some TLC.

For today I slept until noon and then Anna and I made the journey out to the Container Store on Dallas North Tollway and I got my drawers and she fixed her overpriced hangers. We then grabbed a late lunch at Chick-Fil-A and I headed home to eat dinner with Rusty and the fam. After that Rusty and I couldn't figure out what to do so we headed over to Target to search for the ever elusive fridge magnets I'm dying for. They had them at Target, but they were very overpriced so we headed off to Wally World where I swear we asked twenty different people who gave us twenty different answers. The best one was the crazy craft area lady who told us we would just have to glue magnets onto wooden letters....riiight crazy lady. After that we met up with Mitch and Heather and saw American Wedding which was very cute but also disgusting in some places. However, I give it two thumbs up and think everyone should go see it. Well that's all for now...nighty night!

2003-07-31T21:52:00.000-07:00

It's been a few days since I've posted, but you haven't missed too much. Tuesday I worked a half day and then went to the mall to get a few more jeans before no sales tax weekend and every item of clothing left is a rare species. That night Rusty and I decided to go to the ever swanky and romantic Popeye's chicken where we had a buy one get one free coupon. We waited in line for literally twenty minutes for our food, drove down the road, realized it was wrong them turned around and apent another twenty minutes in line getting it fixed. What frustration! We then watched How to Lose A Guy...and spent a nice quiet evening at home.

Yesterday I worked a full day, came home took a nap, watched TV at Rusty's, went to bed...Yawn.

Now for the present time. Today I once again worked a half day...I could get used to these...and went home and took a short nap before Anna and I embarked on our shopping marathon. We began at the mall where Anna purchased a few pairs of jeans that I must say look great Anna! :) Then off we went to Office Depot where I was informed that school supplies are not going to be tax free this weekend, only clothes, so I bought most of the supplies I need for school. After that we went to Bed, Bath and Beyond, to buy those crazy XL sheets everyone needs for thier dorm beds...I don't know about you, but I have yet to meet any girls that are giants, so why these extra long beds? Whatever. Anna and I then headed to Best Buy to get a laptop case and Target was our last stop where she and I bought the whole store. But our bras and pajamas are to die for! After that, we met up with Sam and cruised to the local IHOP and enjoyed a hearty meal of pancakes, grilled cheese, and a BLT. We sat talking for a little while afterwards and continued hanging at my house later. All of the togetherness today has made me realize that in a little less than a month all of us will be going to opposite parts of the state. So I just want to say to all my 'big booty hoes",

Thanks for all the laughs and memories. The times we spent growing up together have shaped me into the person I am today and all the tears, jokes, laughs, insults, broken hearts, and embarrasing moments I will hold dear to my heart and cherish forever. I know all of you guys are going to do great things and I am so proud of all that you have become. I love you all and always will. Let's never forget each other!

2003-07-28T20:10:00.000-07:00

Today was absolutely uneventful, but I'm trying to stay in the habit of writing, so lucky you, tonight will be a short one. I went to work today and it was a usual Monday. I did my usual of working for about thirty minutes then doing nothing for two hours. I either have the best job or the most boring job...you decide. I did kind of get two lunch breaks so that was good. On the first one I ate the lunch I brought and for the second one I ran out to Bed, Bath, and Beyond to get this cool desk lamp with compartments for pens, pencils, etc. However, they had none left but the display, and I wanted it so bad I bought it. Now I am praying everything works and so far, so good.

After work I went home and took a nap, ate some dinner, went for a walk with my sister, and now am waiting for Rusty to come and pick me up to watch Sex and the City. Maybe tomorrow will be more interesting. Night, night!

2003-07-27T21:38:00.000-07:00

Whew! What a crazy couple of days! I kind of have a lot of catching up to do so here goes...Let's begin with yesterday, probably the worst day of the summer. It started out as soon as the day began. Anna and I were supposed to go down to Baylor and she was going to pick me up at 9:30. Well at 9:18 my dad comes in and says, "Mary Beth, are you still going to Waco." So crap I overslept and I had to get ready quickly which meant no shower for stinky me. Anna and I left and headed out to 635, which we discovered was comepletly shut down. Now who shuts down an enitre freeway at 10:00 on a Saturday morning?! We had to exit at 30 and a whole bunch of rude people would not let us over, so they got the evil eye from me! Things got a little smoother after we made it out of Dallas, but as we approached Waco, Heather called and said they found a body that was probably Patrick Dennehey. So great, we figured it was going to be a zoo in Waco. However we didn't see anything and the campus was deserted so we did our thing and left. That night was supposed to be mine and Rusty's first real date in a long time because of our conflicting work schedules so I got really dressed up hot and sexy and we were going to go see Pirates of the Carribean and go out to eat off Greenville. We left for the movie but when we got there the whole show for the rest of the night was sold out and so we were like, "Now what?" Neither one of us were hungry so we called a few friends to see who was doing what. Everyone was doing something else and pretty much didn't want anything to do with us! So I forced me and Rusty on Sam and Anna and all of us plus Aaron, David, and a few of David's friends rode the Dart out to the West End and ate at Friday's. We left at about 10 to go down there and we double checked the train schedule to make sure we wouldn't miss the train home and it said 12:10 am was the last train. BY the time we got there and ate it was 11:50... we had plenty of time for the train. So we sat waiting in the station...sat a little more...sat some more...by 12:15 no train had come so we got up to look at the schedule and the last train was at 11:21. We started to freak out because we were stuck in downtown Dallas and then this Dart lady came over and asked us where we were going. She told us to get on the next train, get off at Mockingbird and another train would take us to Garland. So we were relieved but I didn't get home until 1:30 which is way past curfew. Little did I know this horrible day would get me into a lot of trouble today.

Early this morning I was horribly awoken by god-awful stomach pains and had to spend the good part of early morning sick in the bathroom. I know it's gross, but it was awful. I got to go back to bed for a couple of hours and then get up for church. I couldn't stay home today because I had already missed church the past few Sundays. So I had to drag my sick self to God. When Rusty came over to go to church he said he had been really sick last night too. Damn you Friday's and your poisoned hamburgers. When I came home from church my dad barely said two words to me and later asked me to sit down and "talk". This means uh-oh.....he told me that lately I have been demonstrating some unacceptable rebellious behavior (i.e. getting my ear pierced, going to the West End without asking permission) and I was grounded for today and if it happens again "dire consequences will ensue." So this infuriated me because here I am eighteen years old and one month from leaving home and I still have to ask permission?! I understand informing them of my plans but getting approval? Pfft. He was looking for a fight but i just said okay, ate lunch in my room and took a nap. He came in a few hours later and asked me if I wanted to go get my TV for my dorm and I said okay but it was really hard because I was still pissed. I ended up getting a 19" Combo TV and it's nice and I'm glad that component is taken care of. After that, Anna, my mom and I headed out to the container store in Dallas for their College Night where everything was 20% off. It was packed and crazy, but I got a lot of things I needed and now I'm tired and bummed that the weekend is over and I have to go back to work. I am ready for college to be here!! Good night Journizzle.

2003-07-25T20:11:00.000-07:00

I have survived the first week of my new job and I think it is just the thing I needed to end my summer on a restful note. This is my first Friday night off in a long time and guess how I am spending it. First I came home to a battlefield between my mom and sister, then around 6:15 people for this dinner party my mom is hosting began to show up and suddenly I was in charge of four very active five year olds. One I think has OCD; I swear he washed his hands at least five times even before it was time to eat. Then Sam and Anna came over and we hung out doing nothing as usual. They left and headed over to Steven's. I am excited about tomorrow though. Anna and I are headed down to Waco to buy her books and lunch I'm sure. It will be a kind of mini road trip. I began trying to plan out my schedule for the first semesterand here's what it looks lik so far:

Mon: 10-10:50 CI (a required freshman orientation class)
11-11:50 Chem
1:30-2:50 Bio

Tues: 9:30-10:50 General Psych
1:30-4:20 Chem Lab

Wed: 10-10:50 CI (a required freshman orientation class)
11-11:50 Chem
1:30-2:50 Bio

Thurs: 9:30-10:50 Gen Psych

Fri: 10-10:50 CI (a required freshman orientation class)
11-11:50 Chem
1:30-2:50 Bio

Pretty shibby. I am kind of bummed though. I don't get to go get the TV I wanted. :( My dad said it is a piece of crap and he would take me to look for one this weekend. Then he said I had to pay for the whole thing. Not cool. Alright I am so tired and drained so now I am going to go lie down and wait for Rusty to get off work. Sorry this is boring, I am fresh out of creative juices. Night night!

2003-07-24T20:33:00.000-07:00

Oh another day in the world of the working. I do however have the easiest job on the planet, well other than the tollbooth people, unless making change is a challenge. Here's how my day went: got to work at 8:30, filed a few docs and pulled a few files, read the entire Biography mag I brought, went to lunch with Rusty, opened a few envelopes and looked through a Victoria's secret catalog for the fifth time. After that it was 1:30 and I was dying for something, anything to do, so I went to the back and began the organizing of the 25+ boxes of files. The first 15 are now in numerical order which will make my life ten million times easier. Now, here's the question of the day: why do we as human beings require so much damn paper to buy a freakin' house? And this title company is the last step to owning a house, I can't imagine how much paper is at the other companies in the house buying process. Whatever happened to the days of stabbing a flag in the ground a declaring that which the eye can see "mine here land"? Oh yeah, we tried that and mass killings ensued. Nevermind. Besides if it wasn't for all this crap I wouldn't be paid ten dollars an hour to sort through it. After I made it home from the ever thrilling rush hour, I took a gigantic nap. I'm so tired lately because this bleeping ear piercing is incredibly sore and I am unable to sleep on that side of my head. Then when I awoke from my slumber I proceeded to the kitchen for some dinner, but alas there was no food in sight. When I complained my mom gave me 150 bucks and said, "Go shopping." Julie and I then headed off to the neighborhood Wal-Mart, where it is now apparently a very cool hang out spot for the local kids. Funny and I thought Wal-Mart was for the fat lady in a sports bra, the man who wears socks with his Tevas and the gigantic black lady who beats her kid with her houseslipper. Guess I was mistaken. So now I am fully stocked up on the comida for awhile. And in closing the only thought residing in my head tonight is: THANK GOODNESS TOMORROW IS FRIDAY!!! Good night Journizzle!

2003-07-23T21:09:00.000-07:00

Well it appears I have been sucked into this whole computer journal thing...first AIM, now this. Quit laughing Anna, I'll say it for you, "I told you so!". Oh I'm such a lemming..sigh. Well these past few days have been prety exciting. For a quick summer update: I began it working at Abuelo's but have since moved on to Commonwealth Land Title Company because the waitressing hours were too crazy. I now spend eight hours a day bent over 25 plus boxes of file folders in no apparent order. However, I do have my nights and weekends off, which is so worth the grunt work. In a matter of six weeks I will be starting Austin College! I am so excited and this is probably the first time ever when summer feels like a beating and I'm ready for school to start. (Did I really just say that?) My new roomate will be from Merida, Mexico and I will be on my way to a whole new set of life experiences. Gosh, I sound like a Hallmark card. Anyways back to the past couple of days...Sunday was my last day at Abuelo's (tear), no really, I will miss most of the people I work with but not the job. Then Monday was my first day at Commonwealth. I was off by five and headed to the mall with Sam and Anna where I dropped 122.51 at AE and another thirty at Fast Forward. Then I had a rare moment of spontaneous brain activity and decided to get my cartilage pierced....WITHOUT TELLING MY PARENTS!! I know it doesn't seem like that big of a deal but you don't know my parents. Tuesday was Tuesday and Wednesday was Wednesday. Today I lunched with Heather...we are such career gals! Then I went and worked out for the first time in forever after I was duley motivated by a Victoria's Secret catalog at work. And now I'm waiting for a Braum's hamburger and crinkly fries..ugh i am such an fatty. In closing, here's my beef for today: spaghetti strap and strapless tops/dresses. They are so cute, but in order to wear them attractively you must make sure you have all the key elements:

1. shapely arms and shoulders
2. tanned, glowing skin
3. acne free skin as well

I unfortunately never have any of this, so sianora to these kind of tops. :(

I know this is trivial so here's something a little more...my summer mantra:

"Come what may, time and the hour runs through even the roughest day."
-Macbeth

Good night!